My own plans are made. While I can, I sail east in the Dawn Treader. When she fails me, I paddle east in my coracle. When she sinks, I shall swim east with my four paws. And when I can swim no longer, if I have not reached Aslan’s country, or shot over the edge of the world into some vast cataract, I shall sink with my nose to the sunrise.
― C.S. Lewis, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader
I keep coming back to this quote because it fits the all-in determination to to seek Christ that I've always wanted. And it's this love that also keeps us serving, even when the "ship" turns back.